I would give anything to look like this girl

today was the most strange beautiful truthful inspiring day of my life , wow,
david and i got into a huge fight and almost broke up scariest moment of the day but later the make up was beautiful and sweaty haha ;p
and the best part is i succeeded in my fast today havent eaten anything finally i did it. it has been so long since i could do that feels so good. but im still so hideous i will never be happy with my looks i just got purple in my hair friday and i really loved it but people at school were sorta nonchalantly making fun of it :/ which really hurt cuz i was so proud of it u no . but ill live theyre just stupid kids anyway
im going to start writing poetry again it used to help so much :] im kinda excited about it hehe

Reaching new heights of insanity
Ready to soar into my own dark oblivion
Feeling the whole world wrap around my skin
Cradle me in its cruel blanket
Turn on the fire
Watch the flame
Hear me melt

you know that i could use somebody
Somebody like you.


I hope it will make you notice

Im so sick of binging im so sick of purging im so sick of Anorexia im so sick of maybe Bulimia
i dont even know maybe its just all in my head its just my imagination?

I want to be

i want to be thin because i feel like my life will be complete once im thin i will never feel good enough until im thin my life goal is to be a perfect 80 pounds i don't care what i have to give up to get there anymore i don't care what i have to do i will do anything And tomorrow i start my 500 calorie day week i will eat 500 calories or less for a week then the next week i will go to 300 calories and the next week i will go to 100 calories the last week i will try a fast but be happy with 50 calories a day plus all my exercise i will do. this is a great plan for me i feel motivated ya ya kiss kiss <3

She paints her nails

She lives in a world of fear
The sound of failure ringing in her ears

Hiding from the ghost of her one true love
Praying to her god from above

apologizing for her mistake
pretending the last year of her life was just a fake

with a passion she hates this night
waiting paitently for the mourning light

shuddup and put ur money where your mouth is thats what you get for waking up in vegasss.

heheheh

some thinspiration lovelies?

i thinks soo.